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In article <6db2efbb.0e0434e753dcef9aef9227…@asarian-host.net>, pega…@asarian-host.net says… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->X-No-Archive: Yes >"gargoyl" <seeking_morph…@yahoo.com> wrote in message >news:6QE1f.8348$oc.8142@newsread2.news.pas.earthlink.net… >> Hi Harvey, for some reason this didn’t post… >> Hi Harvey, >> You know that’s very true. However much I like to avoid people, I have >> spent >> nearly my entire life living with someone, almost invariably a woman >> with >> whom I was involved, though in college I did occasionally have platonic >> house mates. >> I guess even someone as hermetic as myself is at heart a socially >> dependent >> person. I miss just sitting around and watching TV with someone, and to >> me >> that sounds pretty darned pathetic. >> Pity my body is so trashed, otherwise sports might be an option. >> Sometimes I >> really dislike silicon valley, as there really isn’t anything to do for >> someone like myself – I mean I’m just NOT the clubbing type, pub >> crawling is >> out as I no longer consume alcohol (cigarettes go next… then my only >> vice >> will be cafeine, which I really ought to stop as well…), and things >> like >> RPG’s are pretty much a thing of the past. >> Heck, I’m thinking of joining a church… some good quality >> brain-washing >> might do me some good… I’m pretty damned lonely and unhappy as is… >> -phred >You make it sound as though joining a church is a last-ditch attempt! >Church can be a great sanctuary for lonely people to find a niche in a small >community setting. As for ‘brainwashing’ – what does it generally mean to >you? And in the context you used it here? If you’ve visited churches in >the past, has it been your experience that some form of brainwashing has >taken place? >I don’t mean to pick on you, but I think most people have negative >associations with the term brainwashing – so they hear the term and >automatically a little judgement pops up that says "BAD THING" and anything >associated with the term automatically gets tarred by that judgement. >Personally I think people who smoke have been brainwashed. People who drink >a lot of alcohol are being brainwashed. Maybe people who drink a lot of >cola have been brainwashed – yet if you suggest that to them, I imagine >people in those categories would probably like to believe they are totally >free to act rationally in any situation they meet and would find it >offensive to be told they’ve been brainwashed. Little do they know … >However, climbing down off my soapbox, I really wanted to use your post as a >stepping stone to talk about my morning so with apologies… I’ll now take >this off at a tangent. >I went to church this morning and after the service there was a slave >auction in aid of a particular orphanage in Africa, so I offered to provide >an indian head massage. It felt really strange when I stepped up to the >front to hear "Who would like to buy [my real name]?" Gulp! When I offered >my services I had thought someone might be prepared to pay a fiver or >something, so I was amazed and delighted when the bidding climbed closer to >fifty. I know it is more about people making a donation to a good cause and >anything they get in return is a bonus, but it still felt good. The whole >auction was a great laugh from start to finish – loadsa fun. >– >For more information about this NNTP posting service, contact: >h…@asarian-host.net — for all info about our server. >If you want an anonymous account, visit our sign-up page: >https://asarian-host.net/cgi-bin/signup.cgi
We all go through some form of brainwashing – it is all around us. Established beliefs and ideas, are a form of brainwashing, as too – it may be argued those which are counter to them. Maybe it could be termed de-brainwashing? In which you let your spirt soar free, to choose which one you prefer – of the trains of thoughts you align yourself with. Maybe when you grew up, you accepted ‘all’ that which you were taught and told? But as you grew older, you had to grow out of certain beliefs – like Santa Claus, fairies and other myths. But we still have myths with us… And with brainwashing … it is ‘normal’ to get married, settle down and raise a family. How many do it – but it is not really what they want to do with their life? And so they fail at it. Harvey
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gargoyl wrote: > Sometimes I feel that is true. I’ve been screwed over pretty viciously by a > couple of my serious ex’s. I definitely don’t understand what motivated > most of my ex lady companions. Was it money? In the case of my last ex, she > dumped me shortly after I became unemployed, and left owing me some $7000 (a > conservative estimate). Within a tiny amount of time she was in trouble with > creditors and swiftly acquired a new boytoy, probably to move in with and > cover her bills. > So how the heck do you live without one?
I don’t have a choice.
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gargoyl wrote: > Hi again, > For me its been 7+ months and I’m 38 now… have no idea where to > meet women with similar interests (or women in general) now that I’m > in my 30’s. > -phred
I get a little frustrated every now and then because we have different groups of friends and there are always one or two people who are single and looking. So we mentally try to cross-group them (um…) in case there’s any pairing off that can be done, but none of them really seem to suit each other. And even if they can hit it off, how do you set it up that they see the potential in each other? – Michaela — Swami Wotsisname on desire (paraphrased): there’s no taste before the tongue; there’s no taste after the tongue.
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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Michaela wrote: > gargoyl wrote: >>Hi again, >>For me its been 7+ months and I’m 38 now… have no idea where to >>meet women with similar interests (or women in general) now that I’m >>in my 30’s. >>-phred > I get a little frustrated every now and then because we have different > groups of friends and there are always one or two people who are > single and looking. > So we mentally try to cross-group them (um…) in case there’s any pairing > off that can be done, but none of them really seem to suit each other. And > even if they can hit it off, how do you set it up that they see the > potential in each other? > – Michaela
If it is going to happen it will, you cannot make it happen… particulary when you are not one of the parties involved.
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On 7-Oct-2005, "Helmut R. Zeiss" <musicman1…@yahoo.com> wrote: > Sounds like yours is trying to be a teenager again like mine. > Mine started to drink heavy towards the end also. In fact, she started > going out with one of her ‘drinking buddies’. I really didn’t mind her > smoking it was the fact that she has a pre-cancerous esophogus[spelling] > and I worried about that all the time. She would act like she was 80 years > old then smoke and drink and I am the one who had to take her to the ER > all > the time for 13 years!
Yah, I noticed that she was reverting to behaviors she had when she first left home. She grew up as a ‘good christian’ girl, until she went to college. Then she literally went nuts. Alcohol, sex and drugs came to dominate her life after she moved out. Partying/clubbing were pretty much the only things she did. And she started showing those behaviors again in the last months before she left. At least she doesn’t have the health issues your ex has, just the mental health issues. > > I sympathize. Some days I really desperately want to call and email or > > worse drop by her work and just beg. Truly a depressing feeling. > I just seem to wake up with that feeling some days.
The feelings hit me at random it seems. Sometimes its something obvious, something that reminds me of her, other times, I have no idea what triggers the feelings. > Wow! I had no idea. I always that that SV would be brimming over with > intellectuals. > No fellow geeks around her. Just rednecks and hicks. I like classical, > jazz, punk, folk music, eclectic films, poetry and modern art. I don’t fit > in. X always said that I can be a snob and I am working on that but I > can’t > bring myself to going to one of these "country" bars and drinking beer. I > need some amount of intellectual stimulation in a friendship/realtionship.
I can tolerate the typical ‘male’ interests for a time, but it gets old fast. Like you, I seek people who provide intellectual stimulation. I find it even more important in a female companion. If we can’t talk about things that are mutually interesting, the relationship ends up subsisting on sex. And I’ve done that, it just doesn’t last, no matter how good, frequent etc the sex is. I can’t imagine getting stuck in a ‘hick’ town like you describe… it would drive me nuts. > About once a week. She is living with her mother now but her mail is still > coming to our PO box so I’ve been calling to let her know what came. In a > way the calling has been good for me because now she is with this other > guy > and I know this guy pretty well. He was a mutual friend of ours and I KNOW > that he doesn’t have what it takes to handle all of her "quirks" and > physical problems. She’s even complained to me about little ways that he > hasn’t understood her "special needs". I always feel a bit free after > talking to her. But then I could get up the next day and miss her. It > works > like a switch.
I don’t know if that’s healthy or not. Seems like its an easy way to build hope that the two of you can get back together. I have a lot of problems with that on my side. I do want her back, but intellectually recognize that it would probably be a bad thing for me. If we were talking regularly I think I would be spending way to much time thinking of things/ways to get back together. Maybe that’s not the way you think, could just be me… -phred
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On 8-Oct-2005, <Michaela> wrote: > I get a little frustrated every now and then because we have different > groups of friends and there are always one or two people who are > single and looking. > So we mentally try to cross-group them (um…) in case there’s any pairing > off that can be done, but none of them really seem to suit each other. And > even if they can hit it off, how do you set it up that they see the > potential in each other? > – Michaela
Interesting, in my case, I no longer have a large pool of friends to assist in the process. Kinda sad really. I am one of those guys who is easily compatible with a very wide range of women (and people in general), but have no means to meet or be introduced to women that I might find interesting. As far as ’selling’ the merits of a pairing, that has become oddly difficult in modern society. People do tend to be resistant to being set up, though I’d be happy for the opportunity personally. -phred
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"gargoyl" (seeking_morph…@yahoo.com) writes: > Interesting, in my case, I no longer have a large pool of friends to assist > in the process. Kinda sad really. I am one of those guys who is easily > compatible with a very wide range of women (and people in general), but have > no means to meet or be introduced to women that I might find interesting. As > far as ’selling’ the merits of a pairing, that has become oddly difficult in > modern society. People do tend to be resistant to being set up, though I’d > be happy for the opportunity personally. > -phred
Your comments got me to wodmner about a side of things in a new angle of reflexion. I.e. thinking about how poeple maybe more or less consciously try to find poeple theyc an "complement" (not pay compplIments to but be complementary to). Perhap there are waves that oen sends when they are "adaptable" or "versatile", "f;exible" where that is complementary to many but *maybe* does not offer those who go by the complementary mode themself to asses if they are any match at all? I am not affirming so, I am just throwing this like that, thinking out loud without havign reflected on that at his time…. I.e. maybe some people without it being a conscious process tend to seek for types they feel they coudl be complementary to, wehre if the other is the same, i.e. unconsciously bing a good complementary one, none find the person to graft their "complementary" side to. Argh. Hard to follow my own thoughts when I fight with this very stubborn keyboard, wehe I ahve to hit the keys so hard and slow that I can’t ehar myself nor follow my own thoughts as I try and write them:) Both waiting to meet someoen they could see themself as complimentary to, while none fo the basis to complement is put forth by either. Hm. Lots coudl be said here about the "nice guy" and "good gal" syndrome, for instance. If women are said to be envclined towards bad gys, mybe it is not out of their being mor datable, but out of perhaps more women being raised to be complementary, where "nice guys" also are good "complements", adaptable and more opened to the other as they are. Where then women also find that nice gys pick "bad girls". Maybe it is out of the same phenomemon of both nice guys and good girls being "complements" vs being the thing to complement if omeoen ssees what I mean… —
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In article <aTf1f.4045$4h2.3…@newsread3.news.pas.earthlink.net>, seeking_morph…@yahoo.com says… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->Irony of ironies… >I didn’t really have the time or energy to maintain my friendships either, >and frankly, my ex was uncomfortable around my friends and family due to her >personal insecurities. >She too was bi-polar, possibly obsessive-compulsive, with options on a few >other mental health issues. It required a large number of changes on my >part, a lot of acceptance of her quirks, and a lot of patient understanding >to keep things putting along, but I thought she was worth it. >We spent something over five years together, the longest she’s stayed >anywhere, with anyone, since she became an adult. Heck, her longest prior >relationship was in the few months at most category. She was always very >secretive and deceptive (a pity because she lied very poorly – offered to >teach her how to do it properly), and really had/has no idea who she is or >what she wants in life. Its a pity really, at heart she has the potential >(as do we all) to be a truly good person. I think she’s afraid more than >anything, afraid that in trying there will be failures (as there invariably >are) and not being able to cope with the failures. >Sad, but despite everything, and the many months that have passed, I still >miss her. >Like you, I really have no idea where to meet people as friends, much less >find a new romantic partner. I’ve never really gotten along with folks my >age, with a few exceptions. I prefer the company of those younger or older >than myself. And I’m an oddity – computer geek, fond of scifi/fantasy, >discussion/debate – an intellectual wack really. End result is that I don’t >fit in well with most men. I’m not obsessed with sports, cars and T&A. Puts >a damper on conversations with other men. >Thirteen years for you eh? That’s a long time – my two domestic partnerships >only add up to about 12 years. At least the first one ended in a fashion >that I could accept after a time. She and I had really grown in different >directions. >My ‘new’ ex… I wish I understood what happened and why. But to be honest >with myself, even if she and I could sit down for a few weeks of discussion, >I don’t know that I would find an answer. I doubt she really knows why she >did what she did… >Blah. >-phred
Just be who you are – and just do what you like doing. That is the only thing we can do, so that we end up being in like company, among friends. If you do things to please other people – then, you can only blame yourself for not enjoying life and being with people who don’t enjoy your company. Harvey
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In article <6QE1f.8348$oc.8…@newsread2.news.pas.earthlink.net>, seeking_morph…@yahoo.com says… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->Hi Harvey, for some reason this didn’t post… >Hi Harvey, >You know that’s very true. However much I like to avoid people, I have >spent >nearly my entire life living with someone, almost invariably a woman >with >whom I was involved, though in college I did occasionally have platonic >house mates. >I guess even someone as hermetic as myself is at heart a socially >dependent >person. I miss just sitting around and watching TV with someone, and to >me >that sounds pretty darned pathetic. >Pity my body is so trashed, otherwise sports might be an option. >Sometimes I >really dislike silicon valley, as there really isn’t anything to do for >someone like myself – I mean I’m just NOT the clubbing type, pub >crawling is >out as I no longer consume alcohol (cigarettes go next… then my only >vice >will be cafeine, which I really ought to stop as well…), and things >like >RPG’s are pretty much a thing of the past. >Heck, I’m thinking of joining a church… some good quality >brain-washing >might do me some good… I’m pretty damned lonely and unhappy as is… >-phred
Hi, I live with my eldest brother, who is a pain to live with, actually. I guess he probably thinks I am too, but I’m somewhat ‘normal’ whereas he’s not. He’s mentally ill, schizophrenic – is dependent on drugs to keep him somewhat normal. Basically he doesn’t function like an adult, and has serious faults with his character. He’s a Jehovah’s Witness – and trying to talk any kind of sense with a JW, it’s better to simply give up, when talking about issues, they think they know. They don’t. Anyway I tend to keep to myself – and I knew a long time ago, I needed something to really lift my spirits and life. That, has been volleyball. I did try out table tennis, but volleyball is way, way better. I did try some other physical things, knowing this should keep me in reasonable shape for later in life. What’s the fun of growing older, if you can’t enjoy yourself? I know the problems of finding suitable ‘company’ to mix with, so that life is not so lonely. I would go to meetings of the type that I agree with, like Spiritualist Church or Theosophical Society like. New Age kind of stuff – because for me, the various Christian churches, etc — just don’t do it for me. ie. I can’t simply sit and accept what they preach and teach, etc. I prefer sitting in a church in silence, than have someone preach, as such, and to listen to it. I’m sure there are groups around – which don’t have church, type leanings. eg. Toastmasters, Lions, Rotary [groups which do charity type work together]. There are all kinds of organisations around. I think the way to fix up the unhappiness is, to find out who you are, and do the kind of things you like to do? Try out all manner of hobbies and activities – there would be groups such as walkers, photographers (who go out as a group to take photos of where they go), chess club, scrabble, – whatever… Or simply imagine what you like to do? To try out? Probably the best time of my life – was 20 something years ago, when I regularly met with ‘friends’ on a Friday evening. It was some kind of computer get together at a friend’s place. This must have happened for about 2 years? 3 at the most… A friend was working on his game, and I was helping out with the graphics design for him, as he was into programming, and I was into graphics. Anyway he would take his game along, work in progress, and show how it was progressing. Usually I would take some new games I received (copies of games) along, and try them out, to see what the others thought of them too? And I would take along any kind of utility or demo that might have relevance to what we were working on. Something that may help with our game? There would only be 4 people there, altogether – the friend, whose place we’ll be using, and another friend, a programmer type, who could be of technical help/advice. Basically it was a mixture of 2 programmers, and 2 non-programmers, just playing some games over 4-5? hours at night. One game took a year to complete, and the other over 3 years – it’s amazing how I’ve forgotten what we really did do? At those meetings, and how long? did they go on for? But enjoyed ourselves we did, and it really was the company, more than anything else – that was enjoyable about it. Harvey
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"gargoyl" <seeking_morph…@yahoo.com> wrote in news:U5F1f.4711$4h2.3036@newsread3.news.pas.earthlink.net: – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Well… > On 7-Oct-2005, "Helmut R. Zeiss" <musicman1…@yahoo.com> wrote: >> > She too was bi-polar, possibly obsessive-compulsive, with options >> > on a few other mental health issues. It required a large number of >> > changes on my part, a lot of acceptance of her quirks, and a lot of >> > patient understanding to keep things putting along, but I thought >> > she was worth it. >> Same here. Mine had alot of physical problems also but she refused to >> stop >> smoking! > I think my relationship really started to go to hell when my ex > started partying with younger friends and getting into the passing out > drunk at others houses level. Though she never stopped smoking > (neither did I) we did have a few years when drugs and alcohol weren’t > part of the relationship. Those were pretty good years.
Sounds like yours is trying to be a teenager again like mine. Mine started to drink heavy towards the end also. In fact, she started going out with one of her ‘drinking buddies’. I really didn’t mind her smoking it was the fact that she has a pre-cancerous esophogus[spelling] and I worried about that all the time. She would act like she was 80 years old then smoke and drink and I am the one who had to take her to the ER all the time for 13 years! >> > Sad, but despite everything, and the many months that have passed, >> > I still miss her. >> I’m missing my X right now. I can go for a long time without missing >> her then I’ll have a day like today where I want to call her and beg >> her to come back. > I sympathize. Some days I really desperately want to call and email or > worse drop by her work and just beg. Truly a depressing feeling.
I just seem to wake up with that feeling some days. >> Same here. The only sport I follow is golf. I’m a >> music/computer/electronic/stereo geek. Not my folks like that around >> here[rural area]. Around her it’s about sports/drinking/cars/work in >> that order. > Ugh – weird that I have the same experience with men around here. I > live in silicon valley, you’d think it would be easy to find fellow > geeks.
But no… most of the men around here have the intellectual > capacity of a fruit drink.
Wow! I had no idea. I always that that SV would be brimming over with intellectuals. No fellow geeks around her. Just rednecks and hicks. I like classical, jazz, punk, folk music, eclectic films, poetry and modern art. I don’t fit in. X always said that I can be a snob and I am working on that but I can’t bring myself to going to one of these "country" bars and drinking beer. I need some amount of intellectual stimulation in a friendship/realtionship. >> Do you still communicate with her? > I haven’t talked with her or interacted in several months now. Sooner > or later I need to contact her regarding the money and property > issues, I’m tempted to let a lawyer take care of it, but that would > really kill any possible future (and yes I’m retarded enough to hope > for a future together still – despite the horrid way she treated > me…).
I understand about the future feeling…. > What really sucks is that as far as I know, she still works across the > street at the local grocery store
That does suck! It’s like you know you will run into her at some point. … puts a damper on shopping, and > makes me think about her a lot more than I might otherwise. > You still speaking with your ex?
About once a week. She is living with her mother now but her mail is still coming to our PO box so I’ve been calling to let her know what came. In a way the calling has been good for me because now she is with this other guy and I know this guy pretty well. He was a mutual friend of ours and I KNOW that he doesn’t have what it takes to handle all of her "quirks" and physical problems. She’s even complained to me about little ways that he hasn’t understood her "special needs". I always feel a bit free after talking to her. But then I could get up the next day and miss her. It works like a switch. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> -phred
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Sometimes I feel that is true. I’ve been screwed over pretty viciously by a couple of my serious ex’s. I definitely don’t understand what motivated most of my ex lady companions. Was it money? In the case of my last ex, she dumped me shortly after I became unemployed, and left owing me some $7000 (a conservative estimate). Within a tiny amount of time she was in trouble with creditors and swiftly acquired a new boytoy, probably to move in with and cover her bills. So how the heck do you live without one? Personally, I do really enjoy the company of a female companion, for a variety of reasons. -phred
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Well… On 7-Oct-2005, "Helmut R. Zeiss" <musicman1…@yahoo.com> wrote: > > She too was bi-polar, possibly obsessive-compulsive, with options on a > > few other mental health issues. It required a large number of changes > > on my part, a lot of acceptance of her quirks, and a lot of patient > > understanding to keep things putting along, but I thought she was > > worth it. > Same here. Mine had alot of physical problems also but she refused to stop > smoking!
I think my relationship really started to go to hell when my ex started partying with younger friends and getting into the passing out drunk at others houses level. Though she never stopped smoking (neither did I) we did have a few years when drugs and alcohol weren’t part of the relationship. Those were pretty good years. > > Sad, but despite everything, and the many months that have passed, I > > still miss her. > I’m missing my X right now. I can go for a long time without missing her > then I’ll have a day like today where I want to call her and beg her to > come back.
I sympathize. Some days I really desperately want to call and email or worse drop by her work and just beg. Truly a depressing feeling. > Same here. The only sport I follow is golf. I’m a > music/computer/electronic/stereo geek. Not my folks like that around > here[rural area]. Around her it’s about sports/drinking/cars/work in that > order.
Ugh – weird that I have the same experience with men around here. I live in silicon valley, you’d think it would be easy to find fellow geeks. But no… most of the men around here have the intellectual capacity of a fruit drink. > Do you still communicate with her?
I haven’t talked with her or interacted in several months now. Sooner or later I need to contact her regarding the money and property issues, I’m tempted to let a lawyer take care of it, but that would really kill any possible future (and yes I’m retarded enough to hope for a future together still – despite the horrid way she treated me…). What really sucks is that as far as I know, she still works across the street at the local grocery store… puts a damper on shopping, and makes me think about her a lot more than I might otherwise. You still speaking with your ex? -phred
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Hi Harvey, for some reason this didn’t post… Hi Harvey, You know that’s very true. However much I like to avoid people, I have spent nearly my entire life living with someone, almost invariably a woman with whom I was involved, though in college I did occasionally have platonic house mates. I guess even someone as hermetic as myself is at heart a socially dependent person. I miss just sitting around and watching TV with someone, and to me that sounds pretty darned pathetic. Pity my body is so trashed, otherwise sports might be an option. Sometimes I really dislike silicon valley, as there really isn’t anything to do for someone like myself – I mean I’m just NOT the clubbing type, pub crawling is out as I no longer consume alcohol (cigarettes go next… then my only vice will be cafeine, which I really ought to stop as well…), and things like RPG’s are pretty much a thing of the past. Heck, I’m thinking of joining a church… some good quality brain-washing might do me some good… I’m pretty damned lonely and unhappy as is… -phred
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"gargoyl" <seeking_morph…@yahoo.com> wrote in news:aTf1f.4045$4h2.3799@newsread3.news.pas.earthlink.net: > Irony of ironies… > I didn’t really have the time or energy to maintain my friendships > either, and frankly, my ex was uncomfortable around my friends and > family due to her personal insecurities. > She too was bi-polar, possibly obsessive-compulsive, with options on a > few other mental health issues. It required a large number of changes > on my part, a lot of acceptance of her quirks, and a lot of patient > understanding to keep things putting along, but I thought she was > worth it.
Same here. Mine had alot of physical problems also but she refused to stop smoking! > We spent something over five years together, the longest she’s stayed > anywhere, with anyone, since she became an adult. Heck, her longest > prior relationship was in the few months at most category. She was > always very secretive and deceptive (a pity because she lied very > poorly – offered to teach her how to do it properly), and really > had/has no idea who she is or what she wants in life. Its a pity > really, at heart she has the potential (as do we all) to be a truly > good person. I think she’s afraid more than anything, afraid that in > trying there will be failures (as there invariably are) and not being > able to cope with the failures.
I hear you, brother! > Sad, but despite everything, and the many months that have passed, I > still miss her.
I’m missing my X right now. I can go for a long time without missing her then I’ll have a day like today where I want to call her and beg her to come back. > Like you, I really have no idea where to meet people as friends, much > less find a new romantic partner. I’ve never really gotten along with > folks my age, with a few exceptions. I prefer the company of those > younger or older than myself. And I’m an oddity – computer geek, fond > of scifi/fantasy, discussion/debate – an intellectual wack really. End > result is that I don’t fit in well with most men. I’m not obsessed > with sports, cars and T&A. Puts a damper on conversations with other > men.
Same here. The only sport I follow is golf. I’m a music/computer/electronic/stereo geek. Not my folks like that around here[rural area]. Around her it’s about sports/drinking/cars/work in that order. > Thirteen years for you eh? That’s a long time – my two domestic > partnerships only add up to about 12 years. At least the first one > ended in a fashion that I could accept after a time. She and I had > really grown in different directions.
My first long realtionship began at 17 and lasted to 20 and it was one of those "young", first realtionships. Then came this 13 year relationship and it hit me like a ton of bricks. Still feels like that on days like this. > My ‘new’ ex… I wish I understood what happened and why. But to be > honest with myself, even if she and I could sit down for a few weeks > of discussion, I don’t know that I would find an answer. I doubt she > really knows why she did what she did…
Do you still communicate with her? – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Blah. > -phred
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They are evil whores.
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"gargoyl" <seeking_morph…@yahoo.com> wrote in news:GQ11f.3670$4h2.2619@newsread3.news.pas.earthlink.net: > Hi again, > For me its been 7+ months and I’m 38 now… have no idea where to meet > women with similar interests (or women in general) now that I’m in my > 30’s. > -phred
Same here. I would even like to just meet some friends in my age group but it is very difficult. Guess I shouldn’t have left my old friends slip away but between life and my 13 year relationship there wasn’t much "mental energy" left for anybody else. You mentioned that your X had some psych problems, may I ask what they were? Mine had a bi-polar disorder with bouts of sever depresssion. Then when she would come out of the depression she would be up and ready to SHOP! HZ
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k…@ing.notin.aus (Your Name Here=Harvey) wrote in news:di2lb5$ui$1@lust.ihug.co.nz: – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> In article <hWV0f.3281$4h2.2…@newsread3.news.pas.earthlink.net>, > seeking_morph…@yahoo.com says… >>Okay, >>I know the arguments, genetics, because that’s how God designed us… >>blah blah blah. But I don’t get it. I’ve been burned really badly on >>two occasions, and hurt many more, but no matter what, I end up >>pursuing a woman again. Why? Being gay seems to much easier, dodging >>all the lame games men and women play whilst pursuing a mate. Yet for >>whatever reason, I don’t go for guys, they don’t do it for me. I like >>women. >>And this time around its really lame. I see characters on TV, or in >>movies, and they remind me of my ex’s little quirks that annoyed most >>people, but that I grew to love, and find cute. >>*&^% I’ve been described as kind, generous, caring, good kisser, good >>in bed blah blah blah – heck, one of the reasons my ex gave for >>wanting to leave was because I was "to good for her". So why do I end >>up single, and pining for a lady companion? >>Argh!!! I still want a lady companion! >>What the (*&^ is wrong with me? >>-phred > I think it’s part of your soul – and most people are like that. > Need love and companionship, especially from the opposite sex. > I play a lot of volleyball, and that’s nice — get to meet people, > interact with them, etc — all without having to say too much, etc. > It’s a lot of non-verbal contact. Anyway it’s lot of fun too, and > keeps you in shape, etc. > Oh, you can talk if you like to, many people do that, as well. > Few people like to be on their own, and can do without company. > Harvey
Where do you play volleyball? I love volleyball but there aren’t any clubs or anything where I live. HZ
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In article <Xns96E786CFA83C6musicman1212yahoo…@130.81.64.196>, musicman1…@yahoo.com says… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->k…@ing.notin.aus (Your Name Here=Harvey) wrote in >news:di2lb5$ui$1@lust.ihug.co.nz: >> In article <hWV0f.3281$4h2.2…@newsread3.news.pas.earthlink.net>, >> seeking_morph…@yahoo.com says… >>>Okay, >>>I know the arguments, genetics, because that’s how God designed us… >>>blah blah blah. But I don’t get it. I’ve been burned really badly on >>>two occasions, and hurt many more, but no matter what, I end up >>>pursuing a woman again. Why? Being gay seems to much easier, dodging >>>all the lame games men and women play whilst pursuing a mate. Yet for >>>whatever reason, I don’t go for guys, they don’t do it for me. I like >>>women. >>>And this time around its really lame. I see characters on TV, or in >>>movies, and they remind me of my ex’s little quirks that annoyed most >>>people, but that I grew to love, and find cute. >>>*&^% I’ve been described as kind, generous, caring, good kisser, good >>>in bed blah blah blah – heck, one of the reasons my ex gave for >>>wanting to leave was because I was "to good for her". So why do I end >>>up single, and pining for a lady companion? >>>Argh!!! I still want a lady companion! >>>What the (*&^ is wrong with me? >>>-phred >> I think it’s part of your soul – and most people are like that. >> Need love and companionship, especially from the opposite sex. >> I play a lot of volleyball, and that’s nice — get to meet people, >> interact with them, etc — all without having to say too much, etc. >> It’s a lot of non-verbal contact. Anyway it’s lot of fun too, and >> keeps you in shape, etc. >> Oh, you can talk if you like to, many people do that, as well. >> Few people like to be on their own, and can do without company. >> Harvey >Where do you play volleyball? I love volleyball but there aren’t any clubs >or anything where I live. >HZ
I live in Dunedin, New Zealand, and social volleyball has been going on here for 20+? years. Wish I was playing when it first started, so that I could have had fun much, much earlier. The numbers playing, has dropped significantly over the years, it’s amazing that it was so strong years and years ago, when volleyball isn’t a high profile sport here. If you have no organised volleyball, where you live – you can try starting up your own volleyball group? See where volleyball is played? eg. in High Schools or open-gyms (the University has a multi-purpose gym, that is open for public use too, so a group of us, just go on down there on Wednesday nights, set up the volleyball net – damn awkward when there’s too many basketball players there [it's a small gym, about 3 volleyball courts wide] and some students do join in with us, which is fine, because we don’t number/add up to 2 teams in numbers). What you can do, is just practice some volleyball at some public park? or open area, eg. the beach. Anyone who’s ever played volleyball, knows you need someone to practice with, and the more the merrier. And you may get people interested to learn how to play properly, so just give them some basic pointers about how to play, using what techniques, so eventually you should make your own contacts? And when you have enough for 2 teams, find a suitable place to play, and just pay for the gym usuage – this may be expensive at first, with just 2 teams – but who knows? You may find more and more people/players are interested, once you got a particular night and venue going – it should eventually snowball into a decent volleyball club/group you formed on your own, with the help of whoever else is keen too. I think it’s much more fun than other sports and activities, etc. Beats weight training, aerobics, yoga, etc etc although I haven’t tried these other activities – they just don’t seem to have that ‘fun’ factor that is in volleyball. Play volleyball a lot, and your fitness and stamina goes up and up. No, I haven’t started up my own volleyball club/etc. I have had to start up my own team of players however, because you join as teams in the local social volleyball. I did start up a local computer club so many years ago now – while that club eventually folded, I did make some excellent contacts through it. Harvey
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Irony of ironies… I didn’t really have the time or energy to maintain my friendships either, and frankly, my ex was uncomfortable around my friends and family due to her personal insecurities. She too was bi-polar, possibly obsessive-compulsive, with options on a few other mental health issues. It required a large number of changes on my part, a lot of acceptance of her quirks, and a lot of patient understanding to keep things putting along, but I thought she was worth it. We spent something over five years together, the longest she’s stayed anywhere, with anyone, since she became an adult. Heck, her longest prior relationship was in the few months at most category. She was always very secretive and deceptive (a pity because she lied very poorly – offered to teach her how to do it properly), and really had/has no idea who she is or what she wants in life. Its a pity really, at heart she has the potential (as do we all) to be a truly good person. I think she’s afraid more than anything, afraid that in trying there will be failures (as there invariably are) and not being able to cope with the failures. Sad, but despite everything, and the many months that have passed, I still miss her. Like you, I really have no idea where to meet people as friends, much less find a new romantic partner. I’ve never really gotten along with folks my age, with a few exceptions. I prefer the company of those younger or older than myself. And I’m an oddity – computer geek, fond of scifi/fantasy, discussion/debate – an intellectual wack really. End result is that I don’t fit in well with most men. I’m not obsessed with sports, cars and T&A. Puts a damper on conversations with other men. Thirteen years for you eh? That’s a long time – my two domestic partnerships only add up to about 12 years. At least the first one ended in a fashion that I could accept after a time. She and I had really grown in different directions. My ‘new’ ex… I wish I understood what happened and why. But to be honest with myself, even if she and I could sit down for a few weeks of discussion, I don’t know that I would find an answer. I doubt she really knows why she did what she did… Blah. -phred
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Hi again, For me its been 7+ months and I’m 38 now… have no idea where to meet women with similar interests (or women in general) now that I’m in my 30’s. -phred
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In article <hWV0f.3281$4h2.2…@newsread3.news.pas.earthlink.net>, seeking_morph…@yahoo.com says… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->Okay, >I know the arguments, genetics, because that’s how God designed us… blah >blah blah. But I don’t get it. I’ve been burned really badly on two >occasions, and hurt many more, but no matter what, I end up pursuing a woman >again. Why? Being gay seems to much easier, dodging all the lame games men >and women play whilst pursuing a mate. Yet for whatever reason, I don’t go >for guys, they don’t do it for me. I like women. >And this time around its really lame. I see characters on TV, or in movies, >and they remind me of my ex’s little quirks that annoyed most people, but >that I grew to love, and find cute. >*&^% I’ve been described as kind, generous, caring, good kisser, good in bed >blah blah blah – heck, one of the reasons my ex gave for wanting to leave >was because I was "to good for her". So why do I end up single, and pining >for a lady companion? >Argh!!! I still want a lady companion! >What the (*&^ is wrong with me? >-phred
I think it’s part of your soul – and most people are like that. Need love and companionship, especially from the opposite sex. I play a lot of volleyball, and that’s nice — get to meet people, interact with them, etc — all without having to say too much, etc. It’s a lot of non-verbal contact. Anyway it’s lot of fun too, and keeps you in shape, etc. Oh, you can talk if you like to, many people do that, as well. Few people like to be on their own, and can do without company. Harvey
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Hi HZ, Actually I’m not trying at all. I have NO idea where to meet women at my age, outside of work, clubs and bars, and frankly I’ve never been a bar hopper (though I did my share of pub crawling when I was younger). As for need – I’ve never really thought of it that way. I don’t know that I NEED a woman, I’m just attracted to them, and much happier when I’m sharing my life with a loved one. This time is kind of odd for me, as I have up most of my friends to concentrate on work, school and my now ex. She was very high maintenance (she had serious psych issues) and I invested a great deal in the relationship, both time and more importantly emotionally. I dunno. -phred
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"gargoyl" <seeking_morph…@yahoo.com> wrote in news:h%Z0f.7360$oc.535@newsread2.news.pas.earthlink.net: – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Hi HZ, > Actually I’m not trying at all. I have NO idea where to meet women at > my age, outside of work, clubs and bars, and frankly I’ve never been a > bar hopper (though I did my share of pub crawling when I was younger). > As for need – I’ve never really thought of it that way. I don’t know > that I NEED a woman, I’m just attracted to them, and much happier when > I’m sharing my life with a loved one. This time is kind of odd for me, > as I have up most of my friends to concentrate on work, school and my > now ex. She was very high maintenance (she had serious psych issues) > and I invested a great deal in the relationship, both time and more > importantly emotionally. > I dunno. > -phred
Wow, sounds very similiar to my situation: absence of friends, high maintenance X(3 months now) with psych issues. I have been there and I AM there. What is your age? I’m 34. HZ
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> Argh!!! I still want a lady companion! > What the (*&^ is wrong with me? > -phred
Maybe you are trying too hard. Maybe you don’t need a woman as much as you think you do. HZ
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Okay, I know the arguments, genetics, because that’s how God designed us… blah blah blah. But I don’t get it. I’ve been burned really badly on two occasions, and hurt many more, but no matter what, I end up pursuing a woman again. Why? Being gay seems to much easier, dodging all the lame games men and women play whilst pursuing a mate. Yet for whatever reason, I don’t go for guys, they don’t do it for me. I like women. And this time around its really lame. I see characters on TV, or in movies, and they remind me of my ex’s little quirks that annoyed most people, but that I grew to love, and find cute. *&^% I’ve been described as kind, generous, caring, good kisser, good in bed blah blah blah – heck, one of the reasons my ex gave for wanting to leave was because I was "to good for her". So why do I end up single, and pining for a lady companion? Argh!!! I still want a lady companion! What the (*&^ is wrong with me? -phred
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